All Good Things Come to an End

We just saw our last show in our Berlin adventure at Schaubuhne--a space that has a special place in my (and I think its safe to say everyone else's) heart. In a matter of 19 days, we have seen 14 shows.

14/19 = 0.73684211
0.73684211 x 100 = 73.684211% which you can just round to 73.7%

73.7% of the days we have spent together in Berlin were days in which we have experienced theater.

That's a lot of theater.

Let's add the fact that we have been experiencing German theater. So if you have been following this blog, or if you just stumbled upon it and are going through the posts, you know that German theater is like that one relative at family parties that just shoves all this food on your plate and expects you to finish it.

Going to see so many shows has been overwhelming, but I don't feel like I'm satisfied in terms of having my fill of theater performances. If it were possible, I feel like I could watch another 13 shows here in Berlin. Provided there are still one day breaks to digest some heavy experiences.

This has probably been the only time in which I was able to fully immerse myself in theater. I don't have to worry about any SAS core classes. I don't have to worry about computer science classes. I can just focus on learning theater. To be able to have such an opportunity to just focus on theater, only theater, and nothing else besides theater...it's so refreshing. And to do it with the BFA students--peers around my age who are passionate about theater--that's a God send.

Even despite the challenges of being the only BA here, I've come to learn a lot from them--and Christopher of course. These people--this trip--really helped me grow as an artist and just...made me realize some things about life too.

Which is why the Global Theater experience is awesome because there hasn't been a semester (or in this case a session) in which that didn't happen.

It saddens me that I won't be able to do this back home--that I have to wait another two months or so until I come back to Rutgers and continue learning and working aside fellow theater makers, whether it be during classes or at Cabaret Theatre. It also saddens me that I'm going back to a place in which nobody really sees theater as this powerful force that it is. In some cases, I'm going to have to censor some of my experiences because it will only open a can of worms. I mean, I still have my writing. I have a project that I need to get working on and I want to get done before school starts again. There's also another piece I've started writing midway through our time in Berlin that has been on my heart for awhile to do, and being here was the impetus I needed to start it (even though the piece as of now takes place in Queens, and there's a reason for it).

Still... I don't want to only write. I want to keep doing this. I don't want this to stop.

Please don't make me leave Berlin.